we have been looking at different movements in college over the last few months. I have really been enjoying learning different ways to create art and learning to draw again has been a lot of fun, as i can see myself improving. but i sat down today to make something in fauvism style and looked over to see my body paints and i realised i have not been using them. and i asked myself why, why have i not been using these to create pieces inspired by the art movements i have been looking at? so i did.
When i was a kid, i got asked to produce a drawing that expressed Autumn, the winner got the work in a calendar for the school. I worked and i worked on this drawing, expressing my feelings of Autumn. I won. I told my Mum and Dad that they could buy the calendar with my work in it, i was so proud. I showed my parents my work, and although they were happy for me told me they that although it was good, my sister's new drawing of a bird was better... more realistic. Through out all of my childhood and teenage years, i was told i was not as good as my sister and to this day i still do. I would constantly compare my work to hers, and eventually i gave up art completely. I had a pang of jealousy when i would see other peoples art work, and suppress the jealous feeling towards my sister and the anger i felt towards my parents. I felt even more guilt and as i grew i built up this wall around myself, i put on a mask of a confident girl, who did not feel jealousy, sadness or frustrat...
great!!
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